This is a grumpy gritch (gripe + b*tch= gritch)

 sorry in advance but I can't put this anywhere else because people who see it will either be : A- I TOLD YOU SO (and weirdly seem kind of happy about it) or B - give me advice that they would never follow themselves & get P.O.ed when I don't follow it or C- all of the above.

I used to be a type A person and have 6-7 things going on at once and have them all going smoothly and turn out perfect. I admit it, I was annoying, lol.

When I got sick people would say: "would it kill you to ask for help?" and I admitted I needed help.

Guess what?

I found out who my real friends weren't, I found out sacrificing for my family didn't mean they would even lift a finger when I needed help and my kids were in danger. I found out a lot of hard truths about my family and I felt very betrayed. I also found out I have some wonderful friends who did more for me than my family ever would and have done.

I don't ask anymore from my family outside my kids but they live with me and two of them are adults and they act worse than my 16 year old who is emotionally delayed!!! There. I said it.

They've waited until the last minute to get ready for the BBQ (to do the stuff I can't) and I'm still having to rag on them to get off their @sses. I've been trying to clean all week and really getting nowhere because they've even stopped picking up after themselves and their pets too! I'm so angry and frustrated I'm seriously thinking of going and finding a belt and giving them a whipping like they've never experienced.

Of course I won't. I could and then I'd have to take another nap while the cops showed up. Yep. that would probably happen too. I feel like I am being taken advantage of and I'm ashamed things have gotten this bad. I can't talk to anyone about it because of what I said above. My youngest and I can get by without them so it's not that, I really worry about them being homeless. We are in a safe area but things are still pretty dangerous in the surrounding areas, towns are full of druggies/tweaks.

It seems stupid to be the reason for being kicked out is that you won't pick up or lift a finger. I raised them better than that but since I got so sick, the last 4 years or so they get worse every year. OK, my gritching is done.

I am going to figure out how to temporarily turn off the internet and put a password on it though and tell them to get with it or I'll cancel the BBQ and tell everyone it is because they are moving out!