I've been working, working, working. Progress made. How much? Well. Depends on who is asking and who is measuring.
In the constant juggle of life obviously progress made, still breathing, still upright for the most part. Still moving forward slowly but moving none the less.
Life is busy, crazy, beautiful, ugly, painful, chaotic and joyous and exhausting all on its own. Juggling chronic illnesses and unpredictable limitations (one day up, who knows fifteen minutes later) and everyday life is exhausting. Add in trying to make sense of a life that can not be planned after a lifetime of planning, well, it's a lot to handle. I've been avoiding posting here because of so many "too's".
Too tired.
Too sick.
Too uncomfortable.
Too annoyed.
Too confused.
Too many other things to deal with first.
Too busy.
Too much BS I don't want to deal with that I might have to deal with if I post here.
BUT
I realized something.
By putting off posting here if I'm not feeling well or am overburdened or stressed out or just generally feeling "YUKKY" then I am also not posting here about the good days and the fun times and the little pockets of beauty I sometimes am blessed with in the middle of all the BLECHHH.
So avoiding posting during times I feel negative means I'm also putting off posting about the good things in my life as well. I've realized that it makes the negative seem so much more negative to me.
So, I've resolved to not wait anymore until I feel up to posting and I've resolved to post more and even scheduled it. For me, scheduling it means it shall be done. It might take a while, but it will be done :)
I've been thinking of re-vamping this blog and maybe even moving it---which so far, I won't even consider at this point. I've got enough on my plate without taking on a huge task like that AND I am very happy with Blogger anyway.
That said, changes are coming. More posting at the very least, more activity and more progress.
Hope you all are doing well and having a wonderful and peaceful Sunday :)
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