Trying to figure it all out

and still confusing myself. Life is different now. Waaaaaaaay different. I keep thinking I'll figure it out and be able to go where I want from there. I'm used to the quick change up and adaptability used to be my middle name, I could roll with the punches and bring the thunder all at the same time. Could. Used to.

Of course some days I have to think really hard to tell you my (real) middle name now. But... ask me to spell it (unusual spelling of course) and I can rattle that puppy right off while doing something else and go on about my business. Such is the ironic mysteries of "fibrofog", lol. (Insert big sigh here.)

You know what is really weird (and random)? Having superb muscle memory...and having most of that muscle structure be gone. It can get you into some real trouble if you don't pay attention. Walking has become a whole new game. "Navigating" is probably closer to the proper term when it comes to my mobility any more. It's not just walking, it's negotiating obstacles that are of little consequence to normal people. Little things to many are big hazards to the mobility challenged.

Where am I going with all this? I really don't know. I've got a lot of stuff buzzing around in my brain and I'm trying to figure it all out. I feel like I'm on the edge of some big momentous change (and it's good I think) but I'm not quite there yet so I don't know exactly where this is all leading. So it's exciting. And nerve wracking.

Did I mention exciting? It's just leaving me a little restless is all. Even my dreams are weirder than normal. That's how I know it's a big change. The subconscious starts kicking stuff up long before every thing tumbles into place and the mystery is unlocked.

That's where I'm at right now. Restless and drifting a little. It's going to be amazing though and I'm looking forward to it. The waiting is arrrrrrgle..though LOL

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!