Hang in there

Hang in there, I keep getting told AND telling myself. That grief you have for the lifestyle you used to have is something many of us have to work through and sometimes it takes a while, I am still working on it some days.

I don't say the person you used to be because I used to say it a lot then I realized I'm still the same person I used to be, my health issues have changed my lifestyle, not the person I am and that's where a lot of frustration, grief and anger come in.

I miss being active and low pain/no pain and sometimes I feel like a different person, like my identity is slowly being eroded into somebody unrecognizable from what I used to call "normal" but deep down, I'm still me, I just have to find out exactly who "me" is, I thought I knew but this "stuff" has shaken everything up and turned it upside down and backwards. It takes time, yes, but how much time? The rest of my life?