Cruddycrap:

We have at least this month and we were told next month too...and also told probably February/March by the bank. So it's all OK right?

Well hello PTSD, you haven't been a daily fixture in my life for quite awhile. I can't say I missed you one effing nasty bit. Trying so hard NOT to stress as stress exacerbates my fibromyalgia and can push me into a flare, where NOTHING will be able to be done. OK. So don't stress. Yeah. Uh right. Right on that.

OYE!!!

Every time I start to pack instead of normal cleaning chores I start getting panicky and jittery.

It's OK I keep telling myself, I found a storage unit and I'm going to go pay for it etc this afternoon and it's all good, it's just staying ahead in this strange game and staying calm and getting everything sorted etc.

I just need to stay calm, I got this. It's inconvenient but it's not the end of the world....Then I try again and same thing happens. Then I have to try to not get panicky that I keep getting panicky. OMG logic please prevail over my emotions grrrrrr!

I've got this and it's going to be hard but it's also going to be OK but some days oh...just some days...