Playing around when I've been stuck on the couch lately

 I lose hours sometimes when I'm just playing like this :) I've had a little Halloween fun on the brain recently:

Spider King pendant

I normally don't like spiders but I wanted to see if a could make a "cute" one...one that would be an adorable focal on a necklace. I love this little guy :)

Orange and Black Halloween pendant

Black floral wire (wiped a myriad of times to remove the excess powder from the paint) and some orphan beads. I think I am going to make an orphan bead and black wire chain for this pendant, I really like the way it turned out.

Thank God for Netflix (been watching all kinds of documentaries) and wire, pliers & beads!!!

Happy Wednesday :)

Update of sorts

Been trying to get motivated and get off the couch but between the loperamide making me sleepy and the chronic fatigue coupled with my recent foot injury making me tired as well, I've not achieved much of anything except binge watching Hart of Dixie on Netflix to avoid binging on Orange is the New Black all at once. I waited so long for season two of ONB I'm trying to string it out and enjoy it as long as possible :)

The weather has been pretty nice lately and it hasn't rained but it hasn't warmed up either. All in all it's been a pretty chilly June.

I've gotten some little stuff done here and there but most of this week I've been napping or on the couch. It's hard not to get down when I'm physically unable to do the things I need or the do the activities I want. So far I've been keeping those bummed feelings about what I haven't gotten done at bay by remembering all the stuff I have gotten done.

I won't go into the list here but I accomplished some major monthly chores for the household and did some work on several projects I've been wanting to play with for ages :) Just the enjoyment of getting to work on little things here and there helps counteract the "blahs" when I'm feeling like a definite underachiever.

One of my biggest disappointments has been wanting to write more posts here on the blog and not having done it for so many different reasons: too tired, too uncomfortable, to yukky too...all just a bunch of excuses because I really haven't been ready to face how horrible I was feeling. Now that I am feeling a little better I can admit how horrible I actually was feeling. Does that make any sense?

I just find it hard to write about anything when I feel like I haven't done anything lately but loll on the couch. BUT as I said, that's not true, I've done some stuff, really, lol. And in theory I have many things to write about but this feeling of being unproductive by feeling shackled to the couch is overwhelming at times and presents a huge mental hurdle in addition to the obvious physical obstacles I'm trying to overcome. Sometimes it's the only thing I can think about....or expend energy avoiding thinking about.

This "choosing your attitude" is some pretty hard work but it does work :)

Of course, now all I'm thinking about is the nap I'm feeling coming up. So, off to do that with no guilt, I earned it :)

Easy / not so easy

Today is an easy day or  in other parlance: a not so easy day. I am taking it easy because today things really are not so easy. Yeah. ok...BRB...

20 minutes later...I've got coffee, I've taken the last half of my allotted  vicodyne for the day (it's 11:30 a.m.) I'm sitting still hoping things are going to "relax". To say I overdid it yesterday would be an understatement.

I drove myself to town and got groceries and did other errands. I ran into a friend and we spent over two hours talking (all of during which we stood). During which was agony in the lower back (sigh) and stupid right knee which keeps swelling for no reason. I pushed over and beyond and I'm paying today. Yes. It was worth it but I do know better.

You know when the endorphins kick in after a major work out, those awesome awesome endorphins that feel so good? I had an endorphin rush 45 minutes after I got home and parked my rear and did NOTHING. I sat still and breathed. And I got that rush. That's how bad I overdid it yesterday but the rush was a wonderful surprise and it felt so good in the midst of that discomfort (good sigh, dreamy smile, lol). I thought that feeling and I would not meet again because of the usually overpowering pain so it was so nice :)

And today...little baby steps, take it easy take it slow...and nap when needed. I'm still working on the idea that succumbing to the overwhelming need to lay down and rest isn't a sign of a weak and flawed character on my part, it's my body telling me to slow the eff down! Seems simple but sometimes the simpler it is the harder it is for me to grasp. I'm stubborn that way some of the time.

I got up at 8 am and (that's "sleeping in" for me) and puttered around to get my coffee. I realized at 8:32 I had an 8:30 dr.'s appointment. Obviously I wasn't going anywhere in my condition and I couldn't drive if I wanted. Son is gone until tonight or tomorrow morning and I *just* forgot my appointment. I had to call and reschedule and apologize and just told them, I can't drive in, I'm having a bad day. They were very understanding and nice about it but I'm still embarrassed and what the hell good is the alarm on the phone for calendar appointments if it doesn't go off when you set it? I set it for 7:30 and 8:00 (besides the 8:30) so grrr...I double checked the alarms and notifications and everything was set properly but (as I realize now) for some reason the phone kicks the alarms straight to the blue tooth when it is on. So, it's pretty much like putting all the alarms on vibrate and expecting it to alert you from across the room. Ok, live and learn.

One of the places I went yesterday was Goodwill as I was looking for replacement electric coffee pot for the revereware french press (old school stove top model, lol) because I love it for camp coffee but everyday coffee it is inconvenient as well, it's a pain in ass sometimes.

After I make the coffee and put it on the stove and wait for it to perk then I have to put it in the pump thermos to keep it warm...

Some days that is just too much expended energy for me all for a cup of coffee...I am too tired to enjoy it once I finally do get to sit down to enjoy it...

So...I decided to look at the local Goodwill, figuring maybe I could find a good clean used one for maybe 5-10 bucks...first thing in the door I got sidetracked by all kinds of interesting stuff, they had a major "new old inventory" donation of stock from a jewelry store. Very nice costume and spendy stuff too...then I found this cool green ivy collapsible plant stand / book shelf (4 ft tall) with no price (the guy priced it at 2.99) and the price was *finally* right so I got it, and had him hold it by the checkstand while I ran over to look at coffee makers.

(it looks kind of like this with ivy leaves on it, love it!)

The majority of coffee pots were 14.99 or 9.99 and I was getting sad (there were like six coffee pots) when I found this Braun in an HD designs coffeepot box and with the 50% off on yellow tags it was 4.50 and it was the BEST ONE, lmao.

Brought it home, washed it up and ran a "test" pot. Perfect...and for $4.50!!! I found the same model on ebay for 49.99 buy it now...and that's just crazy :) So, I'm enjoying my day after my day out with cool finds and some excellent coffee :)

Now...I must go rest after lunch because even typing can wear this girl out some days. Many days. Today...see ya later!